Jacqueline D'Aubigne

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Jacqueline D'Aubigne

Title: Her Highness, Princess Jacqueline D'Aubigne of Bretagne
Age:
Birthday: July 29
Eye Color: Hazel
Hair Color: Light brown with highlights
Heritage: French
Occupation: humanitarian
Friends: Alain, Vanni, Kali, Sasha
Enemies: none

[Crystal]

-- 2017 --

What am I doing? Sometimes I question the things I do and I have no reasonable explanation except for my feelings and emotions. Since Vanni has told me about his family's involvement in criminal activities, I've been struggling with it. I hadn't called him and talked to him since then because I had no idea what to say! What do you say to something like that? I mean, after he said that I wasn't even comfortable with him buying the roasted almonds on the boardwalk because it's like he was paying for it with criminal money...blood money! God, I don't even want to think about that.

But I told Alain and he made me realize that I shouldn't be selfish about this. If this leaked out to the press, can you imagine the ordeal it would cause? Royal Family Partnered with Crime Organization. It would be the ruin of not only my reputation, but also my family's. Investigations would be done on my father and the Royal Council to see if we've ever funded them and what not. So after talking with Alain, I decided that maybe I needed to talk to Vanni about this, possibly end it or take a break. I was ready to do it. Well, not ready, but I knew I had to. When I got there though...I just couldn't. I look at him and all of the good times that we've shared together come rushing into my mind. He's never treated me badly, and he's never really come across as a bad guy while we were dating. He couldn't be further from it! And if he hadn't told me about his family, the truth is, I never would have even known about the business. He's never given me any indication that he is part of a criminal family, and that has to say something about the type of person he is, right? That he's really a good person?

Well, needless to say, I didn't break up with him. It's a hurdle we have to get over. Ten years is a long time to just forget everything and end something like this. Being part of the royal family, I guess it means a little more to me. That's ten years of trust and reliability. It's hard to date or have friends while being a royal because you don't know the exact reason why the person is doing it. Sometimes, and it's happened before, they just want to be in the magazines with us and get inside information. Ending it with Vanni would mean starting all over again, leaving this guy who I trust with my life and who I love so much, who I know isn't in this relationship for the reasons some guys would be, but is in it because he truly cares for me. I love him. I can't end it, I know, so the only thing I can do is try to get through this. Try to ignore it and just concentrate on Vanni as a person, not as the head of a criminal family. I told him it won't happen overnight, but...I this can work. He promised me it wouldn't get out, and it hasn't in all these years. That has to mean something, right? I don't know...I'm just going to try to trust him with this. All relationships have a hurdle, right? I can't just give up because of that. We just have to climb over it together.

[Crystal]

I don't know what is going on right now. Alain has suggested that the people vote whether he or Philippe gets the throne. I didn't know what to think at first. The public relations staff was in a frenzy, trying to figure out a way to stop it, and Father is right there with them. No doubt he'll be with the Council and the press secretary all day today, just as he was yesterday. I didn't know what Alain was trying to accomplish at first, but after talkin with him last night, I think I get the picture. He cares so deeply about being king. He wants to be accepted by the people of France more than anything. That passion is amazing. I do think he should be able toget the throne, adopted or not. He's part of this family and Philippe is not made to be the king. He doesn't care about it like Alain does.

Unfortunately, I'm not sure what Father will decide in the matter. Rumors are flying all over the place though. People are doubting everything. I can't even walk outside without having reporters screaming from behind the fences their questions and accusations. One reporter even wanted me to clarify my own position of wanting the throne! Can you believe that? I have never stated that I wanted the throne. It goes to the first born male and I'm okay with that. I'd rather just be able to live my life and do what I'm passionate about. I'm passionate about helping others, Alain is passionate about being king. Philippe and Sasha are just passionate about themselves. This is just a big mess and I have no idea how it's going to end.

[Crystal]

Things have been very hectic lately. First with with fight for public opinion between Alain and Philippe and now this. Alain had a dream about an asassination attempt on Father. It was Vanni. He saw Vanni leading a group of men to kill Father. I couldn't believe it and of course I wanted to trust my heart and say Vanni would never do such a thing. But then Alain brings me information that he received from Ara about Vanni's family. He is involved with a criminal organization, or his family is. It frightened me so much to read that and realize that they could have the power to really do harm to this family. I was torn. I wanted Alain to immediately ask security to let Vanni go, but then I realized I would have to answer to that. I would have to explain why.

So I went to him to ask what this information was about. He didn't deny it, which I was hoping he would do, but he also told me that it was his family, not him. He's not involved with that part of his family. I'm having a hard time deciding who to side with. There's Alain-my brother-who has dreams that come true. Then there's Vanni who I am beginning to trust and have a relationship with. He didn't lie to me when I asked if it was true, so why would he lie about his involvement? He said he had no problems with my father and if he did disagree with something, it was usually in support my -my- disagreement. Well, of course I disagree with my father on some aspects. I don't think there are any two people in the world who agree on every single thing in life.

Anyways...I am back at square one, not knowing whose side to take. Alain would not accept me siding with Vanni and trusting him. But I still cannot imagine Vanni planning my father's asassination. And perhaps Alain's dreams aren't set in stone. Now that Vanni is aware that I know, if the issue is ever brought up with him and his family, he will remember the conversation and immediately urge this to reconsider. Nothing is set in stone, right? So maybe this helped and everything will be fine. If Alain doesn't have another dream about it then we have nothing to worry about. I hope and I pray that that's the case. Being part of the Royal Family of France, it is so hard for us to trust other people because we don't know their true motives. We don't know if they're befriending us because they like us for the person we are and if they want the so-called "benefits" of being associated with our family. That has been a problem before and I remember when I was younger, I would have girls befriend me simply to be able to go to parties at the palace or get pictures in the tabloids but they wouldn't care at all about our friendship. It hurts. So finally I meet this terrific guy who likes me for -me- and not because I'm a member of the royal family. I feel comfortable with him. And then this...

Oh God, I hope I didn't just ruin it with that stupid conversation.

[Crystal]

After much debating and much thinking, I decided to find Vanni and apologize for my accusations against him and his family. I know Alain would not have wanted me to do that, but I felt like I had to. Vanni has done nothing to me or my family that would warrent that type of accusation. I am sure he was hurt by it and I felt horrible. I'm not sure if the apology worked or not because he still seemed upset. He kept asking where I got the information from, and I certainly couldn't say I got it from Alain because he had a dream. So I told him I got it from Ara Levenworth. I suppose it was not really a lie because she was the one who got the information for Alain.

I hope there is something else I can do to show him that I trust him. Yes, I know Alain's dreams have a tendency to become reality, but like I said before, things can change. Right? Now that this is in Vanni's head, he'll remember if it ever comes up and he'll side with me and my family. He won't hurt us like that. I have to believe that and trust him from the bottom of my heart.

[Crystal]

I don't know why it bothered me so much, but it really struck a nerve with me.

Allowing Charles' organization to bring two innocent family members of a terrorist here to France so they can possible interrogate them or harm them is just wrong. How is harming his family members going to get him to talk? And if he's killed 600 people already, does he even care about his family? Would it bother him to know they were being tortured or worse? I don't see how Charles can think this will work to his benefit. There's no telling what those agents will do to that girl and boy to try to get him to talk. There's no guarantee of his cooperation. So they'll be talking two innocent, scared children away from their home for no reason.

That's another thing. I understand that they need to get information, and they want to use whatever means necessary, but children? I believe Charles said that the girl was between 14 and 17 and the boy was 14. Something about this is wrong. Endangering the lives of children just for your satisfaction? Again, it's possible that this terrorist only cares for himself. And what will they do to them once they're finished trying to get information? Send them back to Saudi Arabia with a "thanks, anyways?" It will cause resentment towards France. I believe this region has already dealt with a situation before with the Utopia Casino and Resort. Well, with this kind of resentment, there's no telling if those two kids will go find some high-profile group and plan some attack on our country.

They're kids, for crying out loud. Kids can learn new things and change their ways. Read any sociological study on the habits and behaviors of kids. It changes depending on their culture and the groups they surround themselves with. But tramatic experiences can harm a child for life. And I think being questioned and having force brought against you classifies as a tramatic experience.

So, with all of that being said, I am hoping Charles will allow me to go with the agents to Saudi Arabia to ensure the safety of these children. I'm sure these agents have been trained in harsh situations and I'm not sure that is for the best. Who knows what they would try to do before getting to the headquarters. I couldn't just sit here and do nothing when I know what they're doing. It wouldn't be right and I would probably lose sleep. So hopefully this will work out.

[Crystal]

Oh, Jackie, why can't you just mind your own business?

I'm definitely questioning whether or not I should go to Charles' organization's headquarters to meet these two kids he is bringing. I was originally going to go to make sure they were not harmed. I was so upset at the thought of using innocent people to get information from a prisoner. Talk about human rights! In fact, I was nearly livid at the thought.

However, yesterday Charles informed me that there is suspicion that these two children are involved with the terrorist acts as well! They are criminals, not innocent people. So, of course, I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Do I back out? Or do I go? If I back out, I'm sure Alain will have some comment about how he was right and how I shouldn't get involved with things of this nation. Charles knows what he is doing and what is best for this country.

I know mistreating criminals is wrong and there are so many incidences about that. And, of course, they could be innocent. But Charles has the ability to get information about anyone and, from what I hear, it's usually extremely accurate, down to what they were wearing on the trip home from the hospital when they were born. So if he suspects them, he has good reason.

I wish I had just kept my mouth shut. It's one thing to lobby for the rights of innocent people, but it's a different matter when dealing with criminals. I don't want it to seem as though I'm condoning what these children are doing because I definitely do not. Perhaps when I get there, I can use my visit for something else entirely. I'll have to do some thinking.

[Crystal]

I seem to be causing problems for Charles Hainsworth and the intelligence agency of France. It certainly is not my intention. This time it does not involve the child terrorists, but Vanni.

Alain's dream, of course. He contacted Charles and asked for an investigation on Vanni and his family. He told me about it and I was angry. I know that Alain's dreams tend to come true, but I spoke with Vanni about it and I thought it was cleared up. Stop it before it happens. Change the destiny, that sort of thing. It can happen, right? And Vanni would never hurt me or my family. I believe that. I trust him.

So, I told Vanni about the investigation. I know it might have been wrong to do that, but I felt that he had a right to know. And I don't think they will find any evidence of an attempt on my father's life. At least I hope not. No. They won't. I trust Vanni.

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I don't even know what to do. What to say.

Ara said I needed to get some sleep and leave things to her, but I can't sleep at all. She gave me some sleeping pills, but I don't want to take them. Every time I close my eyes, I see Sean Lewis in front of me, pure evil in his eyes. I see him taking me from the palace, being in Shiloh...this has just been very overwhelming. When Alain and I had gone to Shiloh before, when those security men were killed right in front of us...that was bad. I wasn't able to sleep for a few days, especially with Alain missing, but I thought that would be the end of it. I thought we would never see Sean Lewis again. And then him coming back, popping up right in the library, his ability to lock the doors and windows so Vanni couldn't get in, and then him -transporting- me to Shiloh...I'm frightened. Nothing can stop him and that scares me more than anything. I'm scared that he's going to come back and kill us. I keep thinking that I'm going to wake up with him in my room, security never being any wiser. Alain is back with him and I think he's going to hurt him. I can't believe he agreed to the deal of a tradeoff. But I can't think of anything I can do to help him. I need to help! I just want to feel safe again.

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They still have not found Alain. I'm trying to stay positive and think about other things, keeping in mind that Charles and the NSA are working around the clock to find him. I'm so worried about him. This hasn't been the best 2 years for him. He's been kidnapped once before, discovering that he's has the 3X gene, finding out that he was adopted and the subsequent removal of his position as heir to the throne, and now being kidnapped again. I worry about how this is affecting him. I just pray that they find him soon and that he is unharmed. That's all I can do--pray. I'm trying not to call the NSA for updates, knowing that would only delay their progress. I just want information.

I also want information on my father. I've been trying to ignore this too, but I'm not sure that I can. There have been reports that my father actually signed arrest warrents for hundreds of people here in Auvernha without reason. Innocent people were forced from their homes, threatened with their lives, under orders from the King. It makes me physically sick to think that my father could be behind that. And to know that is was the same time that Sean Lewis was back in town. I'm scared to think that it had something to do with the 3X holders.If that's true, as some sites on the internet are claiming, then my father is responsible for Alain's kidnapping. His own son! After what Sean did before...I can't even look at my father anymore.

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I feel so bad for Alain. I was just shocked to hear that he had actually proposed to Ara. But then to hear that she turned him down, I couldn't help but feel bad for him. I'm sure he had the best intentions when doing so, and proposing it not just some small task. He put him heart out there for him. I'm not surprised that she turned him down. I know she's been a good bodyguard for him, but she's not exactly the most caring person in the world. At least she doesn't come across as such. She's just cut off from her emotions and other people's emotions. I'm sure it's for the best that Alain isn't marrying her. I know it might not seem that way now, but in the future, I think Alain will be thankful. It doesn't make it easier, I know. She probably doesn't even realize how much it takes to express yourself and propose to someone. He'll find someone else, I'm sure.

As for everything else...well, I've been hesitant to write about it, or even speak about it. I'm still unsure of my feelings concerning it. It seems as though Father has decided to recommend that the council vote to change the idea of how the heir to the throne is decided. They're changing history, so this is huge. But the main part--all of us are considered in the vote, not just Alain and Philippe. Which means I could be Queen of France if the public so chooses. I don't even know what to think about it. I would be lying if I said I hadn't thought about it in the past, but it's never been a consideration. The throne always goes to the first born son. That was a given and I had accepted that. The only way I would be Queen is if Alain and Philippe were not able to fulfill their role. But now I have a very good chance of winning. Part of me is thrilled about this. I know I could run this country well and implement so many wonderful things that would benefit the public. But then part of me realizes how happy Alain is to get a second chance. He's fighting for this title. He's even hired all of these campaign managers to see that he does win. He has always wanted to be King. It's what he was raised to be! I don't know which side ofme is stronger--the side that wants to see Alain reach his dreams or the side that thinks I deserve the opportunity just as much. I hope that's not selfish of me...

[Crystal]

I cannot believe it has been so long between entries. But I feel that I must write about my thoughts today. The election was held January 20th. I was nervous about the results. This past month has really seen an increase in the publicity and the number of polls. The people of France truly embraced the opportunity to elect the next ruler of this country.

They spoke and they have elected Alain to be the next King of France. I am truly happy for him. This is something that he has always wanted and I know that it means the world to him. However, I would be lying if I said that I wasn't slightly disappointed. For a small moment, I actually thought I might have a chance. When the polls results were first coming in, I even had a small lead. But when everything was said and done, Alain won 54% of the vote. And that's great. He's going to be a great king. He'll bring a lot of good to this country.

And I will still be able to influence decisions and be a part of the process. Alain has asked me to be a member of the cabinet. I was so honored that he would do something like that. I am excited about that opportunity, for I feel that I can really help with the foreign relations aspect of this government, and any other aspect that I am needed in. I was grateful that he thought I do well there. And, like I told him, perhaps it is for the best. Maybe I am better suited for a cabinet position, where I can strongly assert my opinions, and still have time to help with the orphanage and the variety of other projects I want to be involved in. So, I was slightly disappointed by the outcome, but everything worked out in the end.

I don't think I mentioned it before, but Alain and Vanni had an orphanage in Romania named in my honor! It was the most thoughtful gift that anyone has ever given me. I will be sitting on the board and I was to make sure this orphanage is top of the line. I have already assisted in the furnishing of the home and the hiring of the staff. I read over resumes myself and watched the taped interviews to give my opinion on who would be the best. It will be opening next month and I hope to make an appearance.

I think things are coming together for me and for my family. Finally.