Rae Maconochie

[Dewey]

Apr. 8, 07

Last night was horrible! Michel had told me he was planning an easter dinner for Sunday, so I wanted to make a dish. I decided on making a dessert. Originally I was going to make walnut brownies, but I decided on a cake instead. Well, I'm stirring the batter in the kitchen yesterday, and Araxie comes in and is perfectly fine. In her usual chipper mood. But then she has a glimpse of what it is I'm making, and out of nowhere, she just explodes on me. I didn't even know she was capable of cursing someone out, but she did, and I was just so shocked.

Now let me tell you the story. As I well knew, Araxie's from Africa, but I wasn't aware that she worked on a chocolate plantation there, and she went on and on about the tattoo's, and the nightmares, and just everything. Then she throws the bowl across the room, makes a big mess in Michel's kitchen, and just storms off. I was near tears! I'm used to directors with an ego who really push your limits sometimes, but no one has ever cursed me out. Michel tried to assure me that everything would work out, but Araxie wasn't at mass this morning and I have a feeling she won't come to Michel's dinner either. And it's really my fault. Maybe me living here is a bad idea

[Dewey]

May 10, 07

Things in the house have been going well. It might be a little of an overstatement, since Dickens got into Araxie's room and she had another fit. She and Daemon haven't been as loud around the house lately. In fact, they haven't been together as much now that I think of it. I meant to ask Michel about it, but I've been busy entertaining his mother Maria. She's so sweet. It's too bad she can't come over more. She was showing me baby pictures of Michel and Daemon, too. That's just adorable. I think she's coming to one of the theatre's shows this weekend, too. I hope she enjoys it! In other show business, I auditioned for the Auvernha Shakespeare Festival and got callbacks for Romeo & Juliet, A Midsummer Night's Dream, and Much Ado About Nothing. I dyed my hair today so I could stand out. Most of the women were brunettes and blondes, so I went back to my natural reddish-blonde so that the casting directors will remember me when I return on Saturday to read parts

Michel and I have been so busy as usual. Michel with the restaurants, and me with the shows. I miss spending time with him, though. I miss kissing him, to be more specific. Is that so wrong? There was just this nice, warm feeling I got whenever we kissed. It could make me grin for days. Perhaps it's better like this, though. Perhaps we're just.. friends who kiss. What businessman wants to be troubled with a relationship anyway, right?

[Dewey]

May 17, 07

Well. It looks like I've reached the end of one road. The director at Stardust Theatre in the casino laid me off because I had voiced out against the burlesque. I understand that the theatre's not neccessarily turning into a gentleman's club, but I also doubt the audience won't be entirely comprised of men. Who are they trying to fool? A burlesque by its very nature.. wait, let me even look it up online! Straight from the dictionary =>

"a humorous and provocative stage show featuring slapstick humor, comic skits, bawdy songs, striptease acts, and a scantily clad female chorus"

Striptease acts? Scantily clad girls? I want to be an actress, not a playgirl. I don't understand why they couldn't just hire a new cast for the after-hours show. I really enjoyed acting at Stardust, and I was good at it. Why did this have to happen?

[Dewey]

May 20, 07

When one door closes, another one opens. I received a call from the Shakespeare Festival and they want me to play the part of Beatrice in their July production of "Much Ado About Nothing"! I am thrilled. Primarily because it has always been a favorite role, but also because I won't have to say goodbye to the stage and spotlight as I originally thought! Michel seemed genuinely happy for me. It was a nice change.

I feel like this past week, I've received no support from those I assumed were my friends. When I voiced my opinions at Stardust, no one had my back. I don't understand how the girls can reduce themselves to that. I'm here to give the world my talent: my singing, my acting. I'm not marketing my body. Why would I want to perform tabletop dancing for a few extra dollars? Well, Michel supported my position, and he even tried to defend me, but the directors made their decision. Oh well. Maybe this will expose me to a wider audience. I might even be able to find an agent this way.

As I was saying, though, Michel was happy, and we even talked about going on a yacht for the weekend. Just us. It'll be nice. Relaxing. We both could use the break, I'm sure. I really do care about him. After speaking with Maria, I realized I do in fact have feelings for him. Whenever we kiss, it's like.. I feel like a lovestruck little girl again. Isn't that silly?

[Dewey]

June 9, 07

Last weekend, Michel and I set sail haha. He rented a yacht and we pretty much had the weekend to ourselves. It was very peaceful.. and very romantic, too. *grins* He made dinner (and he makes such wonderful dinners, but you know that already) and we watched the sunset Friday night, and the sunrise on Saturday morning.. We relaxed on the couch together and watched my ridicolous murder mysteries on tv haha. It was just.. so nice. I've said it once and I'll say it again, Michel just makes me feel like a lovestruck girl all over again He's just so suave and.. I could just about melt whenever he kisses me haha. He's such a sweetheart, though, and I care about him more and more every day. I feel like I can't stop thinking about him, in fact. I mean, I don't think it's love.. is it?

[Dewey]

Greece has been amazing. Michel has spared no expense. We're in a beautiful hotel that even has its own balcony. I feel like I'm in a dream half the time. It's just so...romantic. I think every day, I'm even more crazier about him than before. I really want to tell him how I feel. I mean, you're supposed to say "I love you" to the person you love, right? Michel's not really the type of person to say things like that, I don't think, but I myself am I really affectionate person, and I feel like... like.. I don't know! I just might explode if I don't tell him haha! I'm so glad we've had the chance to spend so much time with each other. I kind of miss being alone with him now that Daemon and Araxie have moved back, but it's all right.. Hopefully we're able to do more traveling together once we both have more time off. We're so busy! Michel with his restaurant and me with show business...

[Dewey]

Michel is just so wonderful. So perfect! How did I manage to get so lucky? Things have changed so much for me in just the past two years. At first, I was struggling at Utopia and that horrible apartment, and then I met Michel and.. it's been a dream ever since. He's so sweet and caring, and he always want to do everything for me. I almost feel awful about not helping out with rent or groceries or anything! But he insists... Well, I ended up buying him an expensive gift anyway, just to assuage my concious haha. A really nice watch. It took a while to save up, but he loved it, and that's what matters. I want to be able to get things for him, too, and to make him happy. He's done so much for me already--letting me live with him, letting me borrow one of the cars, and then the birthday present to Greece!

And I can't believe it's been two years, either! Time truly does fly, huh? The other night, we had the chance to just enjoy a movie together with some hot chocolate and the fire place all done up. It was really nice. I enjoy spending time with him. I still haven't told him how I feel about him, but I think the holidays are the perfect occasion. You can't not say "I love you' on Christmas, right? Or on New Year's! So we'll just see what happens!