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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:07:14 GMT -5
12-3-06
Okay, well now Tobias hates me. I swear. He has bipolar disorder or something. One minute he's all buddy-buddy with me about the family business, and then he's yelling at me and basically bashing the heck out of me. I don't even know why he had a fit this time around. He knows I'm close to Mr. Conelli. He's known that for years. But him getting disqualified at the competition against Luca's team was the straw that broke the camel's back, I guess. And the next thing you know, he's telling me that I act as if I've never had a father before, and that I prefer the Conelli's over my own family, and that I basically could die right now and he wouldn't care. Well I'm tired of it, and I'm through. I really can't keep up with Tobias anymore because it's just too exhausting. I wish he would just move back to Sicily and live there forever. Carmine can't stand him at all, and I'm beginning to get to that point as well. He makes us all look bad, and he treats us all like crap.
I didn't want to be anywhere near him last night so I just asked Carmine to drop me off at Gabi's house. I was able to forget about everything there, as always. It was nice. Talking to her always calms me down and reminds me that at least one person thinks I'm a pretty cool guy.
I don't know what we're going to do about Tobias, but something needs to be done, and quick.
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:09:30 GMT -5
12-12-06
THIS IS THE BEST CHRISTMAS EVER and it's only going to get better and better after this! MY FATHER'S ALIVE! I still can hardly believe it!! I mean, he's standing right under the same roof, looking the same like he did two years ago, and I still can't believe it!! It's like one long awesome dream, but it's as real as ever! My father is alive!!! He was in an enemy prison in Afghanistan all this time, but some marines invaded it and rescued all the POW's and now he's here! He's home with us!!! I'm in this like.. consistent state of shock haha, but I've never felt so happy in my life. When ma told us the news, I was just.. overwhelmed!! The fact that I don't have to live the rest of my life without a father.. you know what that does to a guy? It just makes everything he's going through insignificant, all his problems and everything! It doesn't even matter anymore! I don't have to solve them alone because he's here! Oh man. It's seriously the best thing that could have ever happened to my family. Everyone's so.. close now. We're all so happy. There hasn't been a single fight now in what.. 3 days? I guess today's the 4th. THAT, my friends, is a MIRACLE. Hahaha. And Tobias! Holy crap! I didn't know it was possible for him to laugh unless it was a perverted joke of his. But he's like.. a whole new person! And ma's so happy! She's like making Dad ten meals a day haha. Oh man, I can't een concentrate on college applications! I don't even want to go!! I just want to stay home and be with my Dad all the time! We all do!! But man oh man oh man.. props to God for pulling one on us. Not neccessarily the coolest of secrets haha, but hey, I'm not going to complain. My father is back and that's all that matters!
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:10:38 GMT -5
12-13-06
THIS IS THE BEST CHRISTMAS EVER and it's only going to get better and better after this! MY FATHER'S ALIVE! I still can hardly believe it!! I mean, he's standing right under the same roof, looking the same like he did two years ago, and I still can't believe it!! It's like one long awesome dream, but it's as real as ever! My father is alive!!! He was in an enemy prison in Afghanistan all this time, but some marines invaded it and rescued all the POW's and now he's here! He's home with us!!! I'm in this like.. consistent state of shock haha, but I've never felt so happy in my life. When ma told us the news, I was just.. overwhelmed!! The fact that I don't have to live the rest of my life without a father.. you know what that does to a guy? It just makes everything he's going through insignificant, all his problems and everything! It doesn't even matter anymore! I don't have to solve them alone because he's here! Oh man. It's seriously the best thing that could have ever happened to my family. Everyone's so.. close now. We're all so happy. There hasn't been a single fight now in what.. 3 days? I guess today's the 4th. THAT, my friends, is a MIRACLE. Hahaha. And Tobias! Holy crap! I didn't know it was possible for him to laugh unless it was a perverted joke of his. But he's like.. a whole new person! And ma's so happy! She's like making Dad ten meals a day haha. Oh man, I can't een concentrate on college applications! I don't even want to go!! I just want to stay home and be with my Dad all the time! We all do!! But man oh man oh man.. props to God for pulling one on us. Not neccessarily the coolest of secrets haha, but hey, I'm not going to complain. My father is back and that's all that matters!
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:11:18 GMT -5
((This is when Rafael's son is 17 years old and months shy of graduating from high school))
I almost lost a relationship with my firstborn this past week. I almost lost it because I was too stubborn, too prideful, too blinded by my own dreams to let him live his own life. I called his passions trivial. I basically branded his pursuits as meaningless. Why? Just because he knew in his heart he wasn't cut out to be a marine? Just because he wanted to chase after a hobby for the next four years? Just because we experienced a conflict of interests? I never wanted to become that type of father. That type of father who forces his kid into medicine or law without the slightest regard to what that kid really wants. I never wanted to be like that. And the past few days, it's exactly who I was. I didn't care what Raf wanted, and I minimized the importance of the things that were close to his heart. How could I do something like that?
Mr. Conelli assured me we all make mistakes in parenting. I hope this is the last one I make for a while. I thought applying for Halifax would be Raf's expression of admiring me, honoring me, respecting me, wanting to be close to me. You know, the nice feeling you get when you know you've touched someone's life--made a difference in it. But he's my son, not my clone. He expresses himself in ways different than I do. He shows me that he wants to be close when he comes to me with his problems. He shows me that he wants to be close when he involves me in his life. I almost jeopardized that, and I'm glad I was able to see the err's of my mistakes before it was too late.
Once upon a time, I thought the only way to get attention from my father, the only way to make him proud: was to go to Halifax. Now I see that it wouldn't have mattered what I did with my life. My father would've always loved me. I don't regret going to Halifax, though. It has challenged me in ways that have made me grow by leaps and bounds. But I don't want my eldest son to pursue something if his heart is not into it, if it doesn't make him happy. How wrong I would be to demand that. He wants to be in forensics science. Well that's as good a job as any other, right? And if that's what he loves, then so be it. I am proud of him. He's achieved so much. He's bright, he has a good head on his shoulders, and he's a good son to me and Gabi, and a good brother to his siblings. He'll do excellently in whatever field he chooses.
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:12:12 GMT -5
2-24-07
In two days I'll be eighteen years old! Man, the big 18! Can you believe it? In just 48 hours at that! Ha! In less than 48 hours, really, since it's like.. 5 p.m. here already. Legal status! There are so many rights to look forward to when you're 18. Let's see.. I can vote now, I can gamble in my uncle's casino, I can.. well, I guess that's it for the time being haha. If it was Tobias, I'd say I could be tried as an adult in courts of justice.. Tobias has been doing good, though, surprisingly. Can you imagine? Ever since dad came back, though, he's just been so much more mellow. It's kind of weird, really, because you'd always expect him to have drugs in his room, or to be smoking, or to just say mean things.. but he's pretty much steered clear of pretty much anyone but dad for the past months. And he goes with dad everywhere, too.
I don't know. Sometimes it makes me a little mad. Because he's practically hogging all of dad's attention, but I wish dad would see just how much of a prodigal son Tobias has been in the two years we were "fatherless". He almost put our family name down the drain. And now he's some 180-degree turn around saint? Call me a pessimist, but I just don't buy it. Maybe he can fool dad, but hes' not fooling the rest of us.
Work's been good, too. I got a raise. Granted, it was only a dollar raise, but it still feels good! And I'm assistant manager now, too, so kind of have this authority which is pretty nice haha. We have that Christina Tagliatti girl working with us now. She's pretty cool. No, she's actually pretty awesome. I mean, she loves cars and BK? Haha. She invited me to this car show but my one year anniversary with Gabi is that same day, and if I miss that, it's pretty much asking for a deathwish.
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:13:40 GMT -5
4-11-07
I GOT ACCEPTED INTO ROCHESTER!!!!!!!
The letter was sitting in our mailbox all day! Can you believe that? Haha. Actually, I can. But anyway, my mom came home from work late and brought in the mail, and there were the big envelopes for me and Mona. And we both got in! How awesome is that. Now I'm trying to finish up my FAFSA so I can get a financial aid letter for them. I remember some of their recruits being at our games, and I even spoke to one about possible sport scholarships at the school. He said I would be a prime recipient for such a scholarship, so I'm going to call their athletics department up later today and see what the situation is. I'm still waiting for letters from Bedford and Halifax, too. We'll see what happens! I hope Jake got in, too!
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:15:15 GMT -5
4-17-07
WHERE ARE MY ACCEPTANCE LETTERS!?
Ha, okay, now that I got that out of the way. Man, this parenting thing blows! Why did we have to pick lower class, out of all the incomes that were in that stupid box? Haha. This sucks. I think Ramona at least got middle class or something. But dang.. I can't even do anything. The money always goes to bills and junk. And we both are working two jobs! And my dad's a Sicilian goat herder! Hahah. Tobias is lucky are family's loaded. I don't know how he'd do it by himself, you know? It makes me think about the kids on free or reduced lunch here at school. It makes me wonder about their situations back home, and about the times back in middle school when some guy would be picked on for wearing the same shirt 2 or 3 days in a row. I guess it's a good project, at least for me, because I'm used to never being in want. I mean, we always have food in the fridge, and we have like God knows how many cars, and we live in this huge estate. So, it makes me think about poor people more, and the homeless, and I guess maybe I'll give more money at church for the offering and stuff.
But yeah, Gabi named our daughter Liliana lol. Nice name, nice name. Uhm.. what else. Oh, I manage a Burger King because I only have a high school degree? Not to say people who manage fast food restaurants aren't educated.. but these days, you need a college degree to get like.. a "career" type of job, I guess. My story is that I flipped burgers for a year, and moved up gradually over a three year period haha. I also work at a mechanic's. Gabi works at a Target, I think, and she also works at a daycare. And we take lunch breaks together so that I can see the baby. Uhm.. we live in an apartment haha, and we have one car, I think. I guess I drop her off at work or something.
Isn't this crazy!?
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:16:14 GMT -5
5-8-07
I GOT ACCEPTED INTO BEDFORD AND HALIFAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh man, school's over in like less than two weeks, but I don't care! It needs to be over right now because it doesn't matter anymore!! Hahaha. I GOT ACCEPTED INTO ALL THE SCHOOLS I APPLIED TO!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! I don't know what to do with myself. Winning prom king was all right, but this is just AWESOME!!!! I could follow in Dad's footsteps at Halifax, I could do the 3-2 program for engineering at Bedford, or I could just chill out and play ball at Rochester probably. This is like.. oh man. This is AMAZING! Mom and Dad were so happy! We're even going out to eat later (not at Burger King's but that's okay haha). I think we're going to one of the nice restaurants in the casino.. or that Bella's place. My dad likes the food there ha. But man! Now I have a big decision to make! I don't even know where I want to go! Every one seems great! I really want to make Dad proud and go to Halifax.. but I really want to be an engineer, too. I mean, obviously I like building models and I kind of want to design and build jets for Halifax and all.. I don't know. He would be proud with either one, wouldn't he? Whatever. I won't think about that right now. All that matters is that I got accepted!
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:17:28 GMT -5
6-2-07
So looks like Joey's been having inappropriate phone conversations with Ava *smirks* That was great. Mickey... where would this family me without him, you know? Well, Joey and I got to talking about my relationship with Gabi. The kid's a trip, but.. he is helpful in these kinds of things ha. I can't believe we're going to be living together. At least he has a girlfriend. Otherwise, he'd probably have girls over for parties all weekend long haha. Speaking of which, I have to ask him when our lease starts. Mom and Dad were pretty cool with me having my own place. I think it's just because it's with Joey and everyone in the entire Rossi family--France and Italy combined--thing Joey's like an angel from heaven or something haha. Back to what I was saying, though. So we got to talking about where I stand with Gabi, and how I haven't really gotten anywhere with her uh.. on the physical..level. She and I haven't really had the uh.. that talk yet, though. I mean, it's just never really come up. I know she wants to wait because it's what I've always overheard, so I never really tried anything. She just told me she loves me in November.. that was.. what..over six months ago. And we've been together over a year. I mean, if we love each other, why not, right? And maybe Joey's right. Maybe she's just unsure of herself right now soo.. maybe I'll just take her to a nice romantic dinner on her birthday, and we'll see where things go from there
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Post by Dewey on Dec 2, 2008 11:18:39 GMT -5
6-25-07
So Gabi's birthday... Not what I thought it would be. I mean, the night was amazing. Everything was perfect. We had the beach house, we had the beach for an afternoon, a romantic dinner in the evening.. everything was really adding up in my favor. Then I finally get her alone in the room we were sharing. And.. well, things were heating up, you know? Granted, I had to make all the moves, but it's not like I minded, heh. So there we are, making out on the bed, and I'm moving my hands here and there, trying to just ease into what I wanted to do without having to say it. But Gabi wasn't getting the message , I guess, so eventually I pulled away and told her: "We've been together for over a year now. Don't you think we're ready?" I could tell she was taken aback, and I don't blame her. I mean, it's Gabi afterall. But that's okay. It was to be expected, I guess. At first, she said okay.. that we could do it. And I mean, come on.. you don't just say that to a guy and not mean it? Because then what happened? She changed her mind! In less than a minute, too. I didn't know what went on in that head of hers, but she just started crying about how she wasn't ready, after all. I didn't mean to make her cry on her birthday, and I tried to convince her it was all right, and no reason to cry. So that's pretty much how the weekend ended. I'm not going to lie.. I mean, it's Monday night so that was...3 or 4 days now. I haven't called her or anything.. I just don't know what to say! I don't understand why she feels she's not ready. We've been together for so long... I feel like I should talk to her about it, again..
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